“You don’t love yourself enough to believe you deserve everything you want.” Lisa McCourt, Juicy Joy
This week found me journaling ferociously about what I deserve or what I have a right to. It began when I realized my life is not in alignment with my dreams as much as I’d hoped. And although I am narrowing the gap in several areas, I wanted to explore ways to narrow the gap in the areas that appear stagnant.
Seeking self-improvement is a fine line between appreciating what I have while creating something different. Like being perfectly imperfect, it is quite a balancing act to accept myself as I am while desiring growth and change. Which brings me to what I think I deserve or have a right to. I cringe at both those words – deserve, right. When I have a strong reaction like this, I know there is something there worth exploring.
“The secret to elevating every aspect of your life – love, money, health, life purpose – is simply to elevate your self-love.“ Lisa McCourt, Juicy Joy
Journal entry 4/24/12: I noticed I’ve been dreaming smaller lately. Trying to fit into the limits of my own mind, not the limit of the Universe which I wrongly assume is that of my mind. The Universe is limitless. What is the point of limiting myself when I could have it all? Where is my self-love lacking? Let’s dream again…
And I dreamt big! I filled page after page of things I’d forgotten and surprising new things I didn’t know I wanted.
Journal entry continued: I give myself permission to dream big again. I give myself permission to have it all. All the dreams and the responsibility that comes with them. I am responsible! I am capable of managing the dream. The dream life. The dream life is a mirror of my alignment. How I express my soul and manage my ego. The dream life is a mirror of my self love. I am not the shrinking shrinky-dink. I am not these things that limit me – they are too small for me. I claim my place in my dreams that are not yet as big as me.
And so goes the stream of consciousness that is journaling. Some real gems in there and even more “to-be-continueds” as I live more life and learn more things.
Have your dreams shrunk or disappeared altogether? Gift yourself twenty minutes today to dream big again. And then take the first step in the direction of those dreams. Please share your thoughts or dreams in the comments.
“Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can see only as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.” E.L. Doctorow. I think this applies to dreaming big too.